i am a rock, i am an island

i'm tired of friend's not putting me on a priority list. i'm tired of waiting to be thought of. i'm tired of coming in second to someone i've never met. i'm tired of "oops, you were too late."
this is why my heart hurts. this is why i trust no one. this is why i won't accept love.

and now, and now i'm crying. and i never do that.